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Yesterday I saw an article posted by a doctor/pain advocate which shocked, and gave me nightmares. I actually had nightmares after reading the article, and seeing the evil the state of Colorado unleashed on it’s own residents. In short, the article states non-cancer patients can not receive more than 50MG of MME pain medicine a day.
I cried, cursed, and prayed for all the people effected by Colorado’s atrocious 50MME ceiling placed on all those innocent patients. The fact it applies to everyone without cancer puts a barrel in the mouth of every patient who’s been, is, and will be in severe pain. The first thing which ran through my mind was my entire experience with falling off a 60FT cliff, and having my feet reconstructed.
Heel and foot surgeries are among the absolute most painful surgeries. The pain in my feet during and following months after reconstruction was so horribly severe, they had to run a tube from my arm down into my heart to pump pain medicine directly into my heart. Even dilauded, despite it’s well known potency, wasn’t adequate to subdue the pain and screaming of my surgeries. It came down to nerve blockers. They had to turn my legs off to control the pain, and I actually set a medical record for how long a person can wear nerve blockers in their legs.
The pain of my nerve blockers being removed was abysmal. I lost all the color in my skin and turned white from the pain. I fought off shock symptoms, and had to be monitored 24/7 for weeks after my nerve blockers came out, because the pain was, what i believe to be the limit of what a person can tolerate. If I hadn’t had adequate pain medicine I would have died. When I got home I was taking 2 10MG Hydrocodone ever 4HOURS and the pain was still intolerable. I spent my days and nights sobbing and often screaming from the torture.
When I read the article I tried to imagine what it would have been like trying to survive the hell surgery and outpatient wound-care on only 50MME and my heart palpitated with anxiety and panic as the thoughts raced through mind. I could see all the tragedy headed for Colorado, and the hopeless ignorance of the murderers writing these laws. There’s no way I could have survived on 50MME, and Ive even been approached by other individuals who have had foot reconstruction, and they told me the same exact thing. Even before they were aware of my personal story with foot surgeries.
Not all surgeries hurt the same, and some are outright torture. Many patients get stuck with metal, muscle and skin grafts, and synthetic body parts in their feet and hands, like myself, which makes that pain endure indefinitely. The hands and feed are some of the most sensitive parts of the body, and getting them reconstructed is an agony which can not even be approached by a 50MG MME Ceiling. The horror of the possibility anyone could think 50MG mme could even approach the pain of limb reconstruction is tearing at my soul.
There are huge nerve branches in the feet. Many are thick, and almost all of them converge in the foot itself. When my feet were reconstructed all these nerves were destroyed by extreme swelling, necrosis, and chunks of flesh lost in the failed surgeries. When they cut out several grams of flesh from the outside of my heel I lost feeling of pinky toes. -And when the flesh on the back of my heel and along the side became necrotic due to medical negligence, neuropathy set in throughout my entire foot. My nerves were so severely damaged simply feeling the breeze on my toes from someone walking by was enough to make me scream. My toes hadn’t been injured. It was purely an effect from the severely damaged nerves and tissue throughout my feet.
A common discussion is draining the swamp. We need to get rid of the people who are leading and fueling the opioid hysteria, and the attack against innocent pain patients and doctors as soon as possible. We need to start casting our votes against opioid hysteria supporters regardless of our political parties and alignments. We can fix the rest of the problems later, but as for now the pain crisis is the primary concern. We need to eliminate these employments immediately. In the meantime the casualties continue to mound up.
There are all kinds of painful surgeries and medical conditions, and they are not the same. Pain which endures is pain which kills. It’s appalling to think these white shirts can’t comprehend that. Then again when you think about the cliche soulless bureaucrats and corporate minded entities committing these crimes-it’s no surprise.
We haven’t seen a witch hunt like this on native soil in centuries, and like all witch hunts there are numerous deaths and casualties. The real tragedy is when these witch hunts take place in our own government who always justifies the murder and torture of their victims. These people are supposed to know better-and yet they don’t know anything. They literally have no idea what pain is or how it affects our lives. Every person and medical condition is different. One size does not fit all, and 50-90MME is murder. Plain and simple.
This is one of the greatest crimes committed against Americans by the American people in decades. We’ve done some pretty horrible things to each other trying to push opinions and hysteria on each other-but this leads to torture and death. -And the fools are pushing the opioid hysteria and torture deserve immediate imprisonment for their crimes against humanity, but if we don’t do something about it they will get away with it, and our children will pay for the evil burning across America in 2018. This is the year of pain and suffering for Americans.
Ive been in agony ever since the 90MG mme by medicaid took hold in my life as of march 2018, and have spent everyday in bed. I went from being active and working my way back into society, being productive, caring for my elderly mother, and for once in many years, having an appreciation for life, to being completely bed ridden and destitute. Ive lost so much hope in humanity and America this year-I’m not sure if I can ever get it back. I’ve never observed such an intense wide spread evil in this country, and the fact it’s getting worse breaks my heart and makes me fearful of the future. 2018 has been a traumatic year for me and pain patients everywhere. It will not be soon forgotten.
I keep trying to think of ways to battle the hysteria, but what can I do in so much pain? What can I do with these permanently broken ankles? How can I fight this evil which seeks destroy me, my country, and my children? I feel so helpless and powerless it seems that death eminent for us with little to no way out.
I don’t get it. I can’t get it. How can we as Americans do something so wide spread and murderous to each other?? it doesn’t makes sense. The entire ordeal is mind blowing. America has never been a country to let it’s own people suffer to death on our own soil, or to allow torture in the public eye. -And yet here we are. WTF happened??
We have got idiots running our government agencies and posting false statistics to push their agenda. We have politicians in power willing to kill innocent people if it means improving their own careers. This evil is a product of the evils in office, and we have to do something about it as a people. The general public doesn’t see it as immediate genocide, but that’s what it is. We’re dying slowly and painfully, and that pace somehow justifies the murder. This is the American Holocaust.
I hope one day these words mean something where it matters. I hope one day all this suffering pays off, and I hope one day I can rest easy knowing I won’t be medically abused by my own leaders, and my children’s future is safe free of torture and murder by the moral crusaders fueling one of the most evil hysterias to ever plague our great nation.
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Try 37.5 mme my Dr is a sadist!
I have had both knees replaced and know how very painful this is. Now a friend is having it done and I’m terrified they aren’t going to give her pain meds. I don’t want to scare her but…..
Right now if we went by voting every politician out of office that support theseolicies then we would have no one less. The issues is getting the media to center on our side and getting more doctors who will speak out. Doing thing like checking doctors who are pushing these pratices and informing the politician lies and what they get out of it would be a better thing to do. For example PROP makes millions off this and probably have some deal with Suboxone. What we need is some investigative reporters to get to the truth exactly who is benefiting from this because chronic pain patients are not and neither is addicts. Who is funding Prop and other groups like this. We need the full story. Politicians live in a bubble of Washington but in this case it is the state that is the problem. Who did they consult with before they made this law. How do you deal with someone after surgery. The law is horrible and I think probably as people complain especially with the election coming up and people are suffering for no reason because it is not even slowing down the deaths then they will most likely change there mind. Meanwhile the people of CO need to be screaming at there state health board and getting reporter on line. This just shows we have not done near enough on fighting when we see articles with untrue facts. When every we see something in a newspaper or on line we should be writting letters about how this is effecting people who never have done anything wrong except to have a painful condition and now are left to suffering do these insane policies that are just making thigs worse.
I feel so deeply for you and the rest of us pain patients. My pain clinic was abruptly closed this month by the DEA. Before their doors shut, they gave the patients RXs for Chlonodine and Zofran to help cope with opiod withdrawals. Today at Wegmans Pharmacy, the pharmacist told me that they have “orders from corporate headquarters” not to accept any RXs, including non-opiod, from that practice due to their legal problems. Besides this indignity, I have been turned down by 5 doctors for assistance in tapering off opiods. I told all of them I’m not even asking for opiods, just help to get off. No help anywhere. I’m too am contemplating how I’m going to commit suicide.
I failed to mention the most important reason I can’t take my life is my faith in God and the fact that I have to trust Him and not take things into my own hands. But I can’t help but wonder how many Christians have come to that 11th hour and felt that their prayers for relief have gone unanswered and have had to suffer and die in unrelenting agony.
How long does it take to die in those scenarios? No one but other pain patients can understand or feel the terror that we know is before us. We try not to go there, but cannot always suppress these thoughts, even though we know where they come from.
Marty has said it all! Nothing can be added! I too am living in terror of 2019. I’m on 580 MMED from Fentanyl patches due to CRPS. My 90 year old Mother has dementia and lives with me. I can’t kill myself for 2 reasons: 1) I love her dearly and she depends on me and 2) I wouldn’t know how!
Yet, I know I can’t live without the Fentanyl due to the fact I had a failed spinal cord stimulator operation and was without them for hours. I couldn’t even talk because of the waves of agony washing over me, and if I lifted my head the vomiting would start.
WHAT DO PEOPLE LIKE ME AND MARTY DO????????